I've always felt like there should be higher purpose of everything that we do during our lifespan. The unbearable need of being part of something bigger and meaningful.

as I continued to think like that I chased people, try to emphasize them, enter their brain folds, but that's nonsense.

noone can do such thing,

and finally, I've came to conclusion that 

you can never be ready for what you come across, not much to do other than appreciation, sometimes I just feel like there are patterns that I should connect them with each other.

and more than that I feel that those moments need to be captured.